floundering

I am floundering. Highs and lows, back and forth. No direction. No shore no matter which way I look.

 

Which step do I take? Which do I forsake?

 

the drugs are supposed to be helping with this, but i hate taking drugs. I just don’t want to do anything anymore. I don’t want to work. I don’t want to be out of my house. I don’t want to not work or stay home. I just don’t want to do or BE anything lately.

 

I’m totally fucked aren’t i?

 

I was so happy earlier.

 

now I’m swimming in a cess pool of emotional discontent.

 

someone just hold me.